For 2012 I Switched My Tumblr To A Different Name…
Idk why, being random. I now go by…
My Spotless Mind (yes it is a new Tumblr, yes because I can, yes I had a spare email adress).
I’ve Created A New Story Idea And Hope To Start Writing Again…
The only problem is that I’ve realized my writing has a certain style that I hope does not become cliche. I always seem to know the ending before the story even begins to write itself. And, I’ll give you a hint, none of the stories I write have happy endings. If I can introduce the idea in a new and innovative way, and I think I can pull off a great story though :)
I’ve just seen a face,
I can’t forget the time or place
That we’d just met, she’s just the girl for me
And I want all the world to see we’ve metIt was one of those perfect nights. Last wednesday, we were sitting in the café lounge in the hostel, enjoying the open mic night. That canadian guy was singing “I’ve just seen a face” by The Beatles with his best friend, both playing the guitar and it was like his voice is made for this song. Besides that it was funny that Alex and I met the one who sang the song, Nate, one night before in the IMAX theatre because he’s working there and he can speak German fluently (he spent 10 months in Germany).
And Tory, Alex and I, we were their only audience but it was just perfect. Since then this song is stuck in my head and I can’t wait for the next open mic night tomorrow.
I covered this song today and sent it to a friend as a Christmas gift. I’m still not sure if she understands how much I like her… Stupid long distance…
I Might Just Be Bitter Because I Was Sick On Christmas…
I couldn’t taste any food… :(
Also, I think an unintentional Christmas tradition is avoiding TBS the entire day…
I’ve Become Disappointed With People…
To the point where if I overanalyze any person hard enough I can find enough faults where I can go from loving them to hating them. I find it difficult to make close friends because of this quality within myself. I know people aren’t perfect, but I must be meeting really underwhelming people, or I am too harsh on everyone. I can’t be sure for I’d lean towards the first option, yet I go out of my way constantly for others and rarely if ever does that good fortune come back my way. And, I try so god damn hard, and get shit on and called foolish for trying for friends, and more than friends and family, and people claim to appreciate what I do, but their actions don’t show it. I sound narcissistic when I say I wish more people had mind set, and I apologize, but I 100% wish they did. This Christmas showed me how mean spirited and non caring people are towards one another, and while I tried my best to care for others, I really can’t say they cared for me. And, it makes me sad… But mostly it really makes me lose my faith in humanity. I was already on the edge, and it continued to get worse, but I really feel like calling it quits believing that I’m going to find good people out there, or a relationship or a best friend like you see on those television shows. I just keep fooling myself, and I’m tired of the lies. I rather be honest… Or what I at least consider realistic.
And the point is...?: I realized...
That I’m afraid. Regrettably so. Pathetically so. Sadly so. I’m afraid to say things to my parents. It shouldn’t be that way. No one should be afraid of the people that are supposedly there to protect you. To love you unconditionally. You should be able to freely talk and express who you truly are…
I like this post.
If I Had The Money For It, I’d Get My Family/Friends Gifts Instead Of Getting Them Myself…
My Lack Of Focus May Be My Downfall…
Ever since I found out my friend was leaving I’ve been worried about not getting to say my final goodbyes. Unfortunately, she is leaving the same week as finals and I have a test every single day, so while I should be studying for finals, I sit here in my bed pondering about truly saying goodbye. It makes me feel terrible inside, but I’ve tried to seem as positive as I can about her departing, for it is the right move with regards to her career. All I know is I need to stop thinking about her for a while, even though I am going to miss her like crazy…
While Age Is Not A Factor With Regards To Friendship…
It certainly takes a toll on me as my friends depart Tallahassee to venture on to bigger and better things. I still have quite a bit of college to go, while so many people I’ve become close to recently are leaving, and as early as two weeks from this point. Just gets me down, for I didn’t realize how much I’d them until now when I realize that they will be gone in a blink of an eye. I truly like these people for who they are, but I don’t feel like I’ve got to known them completely, and it is as if my time to accomplish this feat was cut severely, and now I might lose their friendship because of distance. And, that is the last thing I want. I rarely get emotional, but when I found out last night that my friend was officially moving the sixteenth of December, I got a little teary eyed. It felt unnatural for me to get upset over someone leaving, as I generally detach myself from those when I sense a friendship in trouble, but I wasn’t prepared for this :(
Camp is out. You can get it HERE or a store.
Thanks guys.
I’ve been listening to this album non stop since its release, and now I get to follow Donald Glover on Tumblr, that is just too cool :)
Plus, I’ve been referencing home depot with my friend Stephen constantly after watching his stand up special, and just enjoyed him on Community. Gosh, he is everywhere now. I’m going to be looking at clouds and think I see him up there ;)
